Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.
Show yourself! I’m no longer trembling. Here I am I’ve come so far. You are the answer I’ve waited for, all of my life. Oh, show yourself! Let me see who you are. Show yourself! Step into your power. Grow yourself into something new. You are the one you’ve been waiting for, all of my life. Oh, show yourself.
Installed in the year 1410, this giant outdoor clock in downtown Prague has been ticking for over 600 years, and is the world’s oldest astronomical clock still in operation.
You know a person in so many ways. Ways that a test can’t even begin to know.
The X-Files: William (9x16) | Pilot (1x01) | The Sixth Extinction II: Amor Fati (7x02) | Redux II (5x02) | Little Green Men (2x01) | Deadalive (8x15) | Hollywood A.D. (7x19) | Memento Mori (4x14) | Existence (8x21)
“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.”
